CC’s Blog 之喜怒无常…

打从午觉后，整个人都暴躁了起来。
不想讲话，不想等待，不想笑，种种的不想都冒出来。
午饭前还好好的，就读了那么一点书，加上那么一点午觉，就整个人变了。
就只想发泄！！
好想喊出来呀！！
心中好像有股气在顶着，快要窒息了。
到底发生了什么事？？
真的搞不懂自己。
=(

HARD TO SAY I’M SORRY - Chicago
Everybody needs a little time away
I heard her say
From each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away
From each other
Hold me now
It’s hard for me to say I’m sorry
I just want you to stay
After all that we’ve been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that’s been said and done
You’re just the part of me I can’t let go
Couldn’t stand to be kept away
Just for the day
From your body
Wouldn’t wanna be swept away
Far away
From the one that I love
Hold me now
It’s hard for me to say I’m sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I’m sorry
I could never let you go
After all that we’ve been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that’s been said and done
You’re just the part of me I can’t let go
After all that we’ve been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
You’re gonna be the lucky one

*hmm…this is kinda touching, makes me feel like crying at this particular moment. Mixture of the stresses from exam and family, they are so unbearable. I am sorry for being rude but you really does hurt me for not being supportive.

The Climb
by Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it.
That dream I’m dreamin’ but
There’s a voice inside my head saying
you’ll never reach it.
Every step I’m taking.
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction.
My faith is shakin.
But I, I gotta keep tryin.
Gotta keep my head held high.

There’s always gonna be another mountain.
I’m always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose.
Ain’t about how fast I get there.
Ain’t about what’s waitin on the other side.
It’s the climb.

The struggles I’m facing.
The chances I’m taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking.
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most, yeah.
Just gotta keep going.
And I, I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on ’cause,

There’s always gonna be another mountain.
I’m always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
But Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose.
Ain’t about how fast I get there.
Ain’t about what’s waitin on the other side.
It’s the climb.

Yeah-yeah

There’s always gonna be another mountain.
I’m always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes you’re gonna have to lose.
Ain’t about how fast I get there.
Ain’t about what’s waitin on the other side.
It’s the climb.

Yeah-yeah-yea

Keep on moving,
Keep climbing,
Keep the faith,
Baby.

It’s all about,
It’s all about the climb.
Keep your faith,
Keep your faith.

Whoa, O Whoa.

*This song just so coincidentally describes what I am facing and what I should do. Hope that I can really get over it and see the dream that I am dreaming of.

whitney houston - greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children’s laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody’s searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfilled my needs
A lonely place to be and so I learned to depend on me
I decided long ago
Never to walk in anyone’s shadows
If I fail, If I succeed
At least I lived as I believed
No matter what they take from me
They can’t take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I’ve found the greatest love of all inside of me
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children’s laughter remind us how we used to be
I decided long ago
Never to walk in anyone’s shadows
If I fail, If I succeed
At least I lived as I believed
No matter what they take from me
They can’t take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I’ve found the greatest love of all inside of me
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all
And if by chance that special place
That you’ve been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

Whenever exam is around the corner,
moodiness is bottomless,
the urge of crying is always the strongest at this moment.
Cry for anything,
cry for something,
cry for nothing.
Whenever feel like crying,
who is there to lend me their shoulders?
The insecurity is always overwhelming at this moment,
who is there to secure me?
who is there to care about me when everyone is not even able to care for themselves?
Hate this weakening feelings!
Hate this moment!
Hate the fading of my happiness!
Hate everything that I am doing!
Hatred is dense now!

从前从前
有一只小猪
它从小就娇生惯养
它每天开开心心
无忧无虑的过生活
直到有一天
它捡到了一条粗粗长长的绳子
它不自觉的就学起其他小孩跳了起来
*piak piak*
绳子狠狠地打在小猪的身上
小猪痛得呱呱大叫
可是它不气馁
它一试再试
绳子还是狠狠地，好不留情地打在小猪身上
当儿小猪已偏体鳞伤
小猪心里想
“为什么别人都做到只有我做不到？！”
“这玩意每个人都应该会的！为什么只有我不会！”
小猪十分懊恼
再加上在旁的小孩都嘲笑小猪笨
小猪只有黯然的离开
回到它的温馨小窝去。

第二天
小猪一大早就醒了
眼神充满着杀气与不挠的精神
它拿着昨晚的绳子
用力的甩
双脚轻轻的跳起
啊！
它跳过了！
可是第二跳就失败了
跳过了一次小猪已经高兴得不得了
它继续的跳
虽然一直断断续续的
绳子还是不时的打倒自己
小猪不以为然
就这样跳了１０００下。
从此就为自己立了　‘每天１０００下，色狼看了也怕怕’

就这样在小猪每天不停的练习下
它一天比一天的跳得好
从不懂到跳得过
在里边隐藏着无数的汗水与疼痛。

这故事告诉我们，
“一分耕耘，一分收获”
“只要自己心里想要的，就一定做得到！”

ｐ．ｓ．　你们知道为什么小猪说这两句话吗：“为什么别人都做到只有我做不到？！”
“这玩意每个人都应该会的！为什么只有我不会！”

呵呵，因为小猪都不是人，那它当然不会咯，嘻嘻。

Hey breadwinner!

As how u have addressed yourself,

please be responsible with what you have said, to be the breadwinner of your family.

So tomorrow, please do your very best!

Not just by giving out your 100%,

but your 150% to defeat the other contestants!

There is nothing to be feared of as long as your will to become breadwinner is stronger than anything and anyone!

Give all out in that few minutes interview and your future will be changed thoroughly!

Don’t do something that you will regret ya, that’s not like you at all!

加油啊！

We have faith in you!

16 Oct 2009
6pm
Dinner at home

16 Oct 2009
9pm
McD : 1 large set of fillet-o-fish + 1 chocolate sundae

17 Oct 2009
7pm
David’s Diner : Mexican chicken tacos (mexican rice + 2 huge tacos + sour cream +mexican sauce) + Dad’s and Mum’s [fries + baked potato + some other delicious potato + pastry]

The weekends have not come to an end yet but these few meals already sufficient to blow me up…huhu…

*David’s Diner is damn good especially the GRILLED LAMB RIBS.

Long long time ago,
there was a pair of very good buddy.
The earth and the ozone.
Ozone is a protective layer of the earth.
However, recently ozone layer is getting thinner and thinner.
But what is worse is that a hole appears!
This hole is vital.
More and more UV is getting through the ozone.
Ozone is very protective.
Ozone wants to be the shield to the earth from the UV offense.
But now the earth is destroying by the UV.
Ozone is very disappointed with itself.
Ozone doesn’t wants its buddy to be destroyed.
Ozone is thinking what to do now!
For its buddy, it is willing to do anything and everything!
Let’s do our parts as the residents of the earth!
Let’s the buddies be happy always!

This morning finally had my long lost badminton game.
After the game, as usual, we went for breakfast.
I have never thought of being treated like this for twice.
TWICE u know in two consecutive days!
Yesterday the gaming plan failed due to SOMEONE.
Anyway, we went to the famous Ipoh old town for breakfast.
p.s. NOT THE FRANCHISED OLD TOWN KOPITIAM!
I ordered milo kosong ice.
When I had my first sip, I thought my tongue gone wrong.
Look like milo but tasted like coffee!
Then, I had another few sips and finally asked my friend to taste for me.
Okay, proven that my tongue is still functioning well.
The milo is mixed with coffee.
So, I called upon the “uncle waiter”.
“Uncle, the milo tasted like coffee la.”
“Ya meh??Impossible it is milo.”
Here comes the auntie who took our orders at first.
“I made the milo, impossible it tasted like coffee.”
“It really tasted like coffee la! I cannot take coffee!”
“Then what do you want now?”
“Can you change the milo for me?”
Both of them just went off with some kind of look.
We thought they were not going to change for us.
Who knows they come again with another glass of milo.
“You taste it and see, if still got coffee taste then we really cannot do your business liao.”
So I tasted, I could not really taste it because my tongue was overwhelmed with the char keow tiao’s flavor.
I just pretended it is the real milo without coffee to ease the tense situation.
While the uncle was going off, “Milo + coffee is more expensive u know.”
“It is not the money problem, is that I CANNOT TAKE COFFEE!”
So case I ended.

Now case II.
Today we went to a quite famous curry noodles stall.
I asked my friend to order for me a keow tiao curry noodle while the rest of them wanted dry curry noodle.
So, he went and came back.
After some time, the food was finally here.
Chicken floss keow tiao soup was served first.
We did not ordered that.
So we requested to change.
And then another uncle came, “You all ordered keow tiao soup right!”
“No, we ordered keow tiao curry.”
“But, that leng chai said keow tiao soup!”
He went off after saying that.
We finally knew what happened.
My friend thought that if he does not mentioned “soup”, then he will make us all dry curry.
And then, another kind waitress for beverage came and told us that if next time want curry soup noodle just mention “curry noodle”, “soup” is unnecessary! If not he will make us the chicken floss noodle.
We were sort of scolded by the uncle.
I do not know why Ipoh people suddenly become so rude.
What I known in the past was not like this.
Is the world changing or I no longer suit Ipoh lifestyle?