Nov 13 2006
MIXED feelings..
well..it’s already 13th of november..it’s exactly a week from the first day of stpm…guess wat am i doing all these while..i’ve been watching tv n going on9 day n nite…this is not wat i want..i tried so hard to look for the REAL me..but i think i’ve failed to..i still rmb i used to be very hardworking n i’ve tonnes of confidence..but now i can scarcely find a little confidence in myself..now it’s already the critical moment what i need the most isn’t courage from any1 but it’s the self-confidence..I NEED IT BACK DESPERATELY!!!heard n saw ppl praying very hard to the god..is tat really work if we dont put in our effort??..im just doubting…but i’ve already knew the ans…so no offense to those who pray hard…this is wat we really need to do..
im just so lost..can any1 just lend me his/her hand??im fed up with those ppl who always praise(unsincerely) that im smart n watever…wat’s the point of saying tat…that doesnt help me anyway..i think im not as good n as smart as wat u all think(may be becoz i’ve lost my confidence)..i hate ppl boosting their achievements around…telling friends r ok..but some i really cant stand them..they r so doggie n tak tau malu..so wat u got this n tat…those do not guarantee anything…those might just because of shee luck…sometimes just feel tat life is so unfair…
sorry…those in blue are just my craps…suddenly feel depress so just shoot out anything tat’s in my mind..after all i think my expectation is just too high which is beyond my ability…i miss school…i’ve never thought of i wont be in school for the last day of school..im so sad that i was absent from school on last fri!!but now everything is too late..i kept telling ppl..leaving school is not the end but is the beginning of a chapter of life..but now my turn has come, i still miss school life very much…although form six is tough, i still enjoy the ups n downs tat i have in these 2 years..i have met a lot of new friends..joined sumthing tat i’ve never thought of joining..
hey ppl of 6AB..this part is specially for u guys..i noe i’ve been too harshed to u guys..not letting u all to go for early recess even there’s no teacher..pointed u all out when u guys dint hand in ur work..put down those who ponteng class, come late n etc..not letting u all to make noise..shouted at u guys..not allowing u guys to eat in class..sometimes lose temper on u guys..im just too responsible..this is wat i get from my gal buddies in 6AB..however..staying in the same class with all of u r just so fun…we r like pressureless n always happy go lucky…most of the teachers like to "play" with us…n we really do build up a very good relationship with our 5 teachers..good luck for all of u..n we SHALL STRIVE FOR OUR BEST!!
*NOTE:we must prove to KOK that without her we r still da best!!she is not the only 1 tat can produce 4As students!!GAMBATTE everyone~!!
i think tat’s all for this time lar…it’s quite a long 1 ..but just bear(pohpoh i spelt it correctly!!c i always rmb wat u thought me) it lar as i dont always blog…
