CC’s Blog 之喜怒无常…

最近真的太多烦恼了。
每天上课都听不进任何东西。
脑子总是在想啊想。
今天我又有多一个烦恼了。
这烦恼不是课业上的。
而是一个无聊人所说的一句话。
这个人平时跟我都没两句。
可是今天她说的一句话却让我介怀。
难道我自己都酱认为？

This has been a very tedious semester ever since it started.
Anyhow my daily activities MUST include room visiting.
This room visiting activity is very strange.
I only visit to a particular room - Mummy’s and Yiyi’s room!
I don’t know why I must visit them everyday.
But I am still doing it no matter how busy I am.
I brought my work to their room to be done there.
I had my nap there.
I eat there.
And I do feel that their beds are better than my own.
In fact, my mattress is the long and thick one while theirs are just the ordinary thin thin mattress.
I don’t feel like talking in my room.
But I can’t stop talking in their room.
I don’t laugh in my room.
But I can’t stop laughing in their room.
Orange Mango Grapes!
What’s wrong with me?
Yesterday we (as usual the 4 musketeers) had pillow talk again.
Although the night is still young, we purposely off the lights and stayed in dark.
Qiqi mentioned that she feels so isolated and lonely.
And through all the incidents we have been through in these uni years,
we concluded that there are no true friends.
I asked them when is the happiest moment in these few uni years.
Everyone gave the same answer.
Guess what’s the answer.
*The moment we are together*
I asked them besides that the moment we gone through together.
They just can’t think of anything else.
The same answer came from me too.
But there’s a very true fact that, mummy and yiyi will leave.
We need to learn to let go.
Learn to be happy without them.
Learn to be independent.
Learn to be whatever we are not now!
=’(
*my tears splashed right after I finished typing my last line. You guys are just so important to me! I’ll be strong!

Went to kacau mummy’s family again since friday.
It’s good to see her family again.
Through what I observed in these few days,
I can conclude that they are a happy family which I’m craving for all these while.
Parents are funny and caring,
while the daughters are very loyal too.
Have you ever hold your mum’s hands when you are walking beside her?
Have you ever hold your mum’s hands from the starting point to the end?
YES! SHE DID!
*round of applause*
Honestly, I have not hold my mum’s hands for so long before.
This is kinda touching for me.
*huhu*
Okay, okay done with the touching touching thingy, back to happiness.
I have finally got my new shoes.
*tada*

This rainbow shoe catches my first sight and since then whatever i saw i feel no interest in them.
Thanks mum for paying the shoe.
LOL.
Thanks mummy too for your few days treat.
Next time come to Ipoh don’t rampas with me ya.

Finally saw two third of my missing ex-roomies.
Everyone changed.
Mummy got “older”, yiyi got “older” too.
But thank god they are still who they are.
Thinking that we will still have chance to stay together,
But the hope just gone with a beep.
Felt so furious…
furious…
furious…
Finally turning into numb.
Neither excitation nor anxiety.
How good if 4 of us were together once again.
Haiz…
Could miracle just happen for once?